dickpunchingarsonist

I have to spend all my time here worried and walking on god damn eggshells! I never get to just do what I fucking want anymore! You know, before I'd just do whatever the fuck I wanted, screw how it affects anyone else or what they think! But now I always have to stop and think about what Shigure or Rabi or Ogiue or Raph or whoever else will think and if it will make them mad again and if they'll leave me because of it! Nobody is ever happy with me anymore. And if I do something that makes one person happy, it pisses off another one. In the end everyone is fucking miserable ESPECIALLY ME!!!! I'm trying really fucking hard to hang on to the little bit of sanity I have left but I really have to wonder what the point is! GOD DAMNIT.